feeeeeeeling

well i think i did a bad job at counseling ppl i dono why isit because i have changed? i dono its like more than making ppl feel better i made ppl feel more sad and cried i really did an awful job at making people feel better =/ i just look back in time and rmbered how i counsel mel in her bad times and i did an awful job looking back at the words ive said i feel like WTF??!! U GILA ARH??!!>.<'' haih whats wrong with me kenneth! be a better person help those in need of help and counseling no matter the gender and race. I mean i just like making people feel better and make them feel happy but why am i bad at doing such simple task? =/ haaih Lord HELP! >< well i can just try my best and maybe start from scratch? just listen and ans by logic? i mean last time i thought ppl don like what they are listening but they like to listen to the truth more soo maybe i should continue? see how la i will try to help them as best as i can IMMA TRY MY VERY BEST!!! >0<!!!

long updates?

hey to all who actually read my dead blog hmm where shud i start? uhh ok since the day i cpled, everything changed some are good some are bad my time organising went haywire my friendship shaking abit hmm but at the same time i was happy i am with someone who actually likes me for who i am and willing to stay that way for sooooo long at the same time urong and nicky they all giving me guilt trip and haih i feeeeeel im kinda useless i could not even skate to ss2 i mean its just ss2 not far and i dono why my leg just loves to stuck at the road and make me falll shhhheeessshhh =/= im never gonna get there with skates walking still the best =DDD well overall i would say its goooood cause i have my dear with me =DDDDD i really do love her very much but recently she brought the matter on she goin to aussie nxt year and i was liike emo-ish and we talked about it and then i broke down and started to tear i mean how could i not tear its like a person who i love the most is goin to aussie permanently and im like left here but well after short thought at that time i was like lets just treasure the time we have and make it a good one and i asked her to promise me to not regretting this relationship coz she was soo worried bout me that she thinks its her fault that she started this and i just like said that its both out decision soo dont put all responsibility on shoulder and i think it was good that we made this decision that we actually love each other but if God really meant we are not meant for each other we have no choice and to treasure the time He gave to us soo yea and i promised her not to be sad and emo that i wud be thinking the good times rather than the bad times =/ and yea i will always keep my promise

Now for the recent one that happened today =DDD
its novie's bday party and it was DA BOMBED xD i mean it was quite fun aside me not having the fun that they had before i came D= but it was good anyways =D THKS NOVIE!! we shud do this more often xD oh joseph got drunk and did started getting high got car he see no car den he banged a wall and a pole xDD he ahh damn epic loool wai kim also abit clazie jumping like a rabbit and novette KO in the park xD EPIC.......

i never knew...

i honestly never thought in my time of sorrow ive met another person in my life that actually likes me and really means it i mean like shes there when i needed someone to talk to shes knows how to comfort me when im sad she cares for me when i injure myself shes has the hairstyle i like i mean like to be short shes everything i like in a girl i really hope this relationship works and i pray she wont go aus T_T oh LORD help me and help me in my PMR too i don wish to fail and get bad marks for it i wanna ALL A's i pray u wud help me T_T

lol

hmm i just blogging to say SORRY celine xD my good fwen i was kinda in a no-soo-good shape =/ i was thinking ytd of breaking up soo i kinda disturbed soo i turn into a douche soo yea sry xD and id rather keep my balls to myself haha im kinda scared of trials wei all the senior say trial hard..=/ oh well its not pmr soo slack abit la lol camp for us is coming sooon november pray alot of ppl can go then more fun like last year XD oh well i shall go sleeep xD bb

why?

hmm =/ i really thinking of giving up de its like she don care anymore its like she don like me anymore its like she don care me living or dead i mean like she go anywhere also din tell me i mean not to be like busybody but like u sure would tell ur partner where you're goin wan ryte even a small sms would do but no nothing NOTHING
 
u know what im not goin to care anymore i don mind to be with her but if im the one whos gonna do all the talking sry no leave it as it is

no title

well haih my life is pretty f*cked up my gf is not saying anything, trials is coming near and frens gonna have a war  i mean like what could get worst? last month everything is clashing together everything is screwed up and i just cant find the person who i can actually talk to probably i'll just keep things to myself from now on and really to myself. Its like everyone i talk to is like.....they give suggestion which is gonna make things worst and i really don wanna that to happen i just wanna best for all is it really a BIG request why cant they stop insulting and swearing and hating and just be normal middle school students in the first place why do we fall in love? All my questions here can never be answered as there  no ppl that i know of that don hate

lil bit of updates

well heres abit update on my sucky life and imma make it short lol. Soo recently interact install just ended i use manglish and the rotarians din like it imma bad emcee and i feel kinda down about it =/ and my love life is just.....sooo....bad dat until she din wanna talk to me for some reason i dono she don like me or wat i dono and well aside dat i did smt dat i regret MUCH ALOT MUCH well i pray dat it wud stop but i don think its working but still i will continue to have faith and pray that one day HE will help me  well see u ppl who actually read me blog for the next update =]

today

lols urm today was epic man damn sick lolz now now lets not get into details xD u can ask celine bout dat xD hmm other den dat...oh yea we finally mopped the bbm room after 2 yrs in my librarian life xD but oh well it turned out quite good ^^. My love life? i dono having doubts i guess im not sure as usual rumours goin around and its like on observation based it could be true but still doubts is dere soo i do not dare to judge anything just yet and i donor the only person i talked about everything is God it started not soo long ago dat i feel like relief after praying its like ive never felt before i donor but it feels good soo now as i say id rather keep things to myself nowadays i don wanna coz of wht im going to say to them affects smt else if u get wht i mean u can take example of last year if u know the drama =/ well i just don wanna it to repeat again at least this time im quite able to handle my feelings abit but there is smt else im worried bout (keeping it to myself) haih well better end here la

ciao

its been some time

hmm hey ppl who actually read my blog xD soo i got not much topics but hmm update u ppl abit and talk about smt xD soo well my life...where do i start urmm ok i join marching and sports day is nxt friday ><'' and its kinda clashing with alot of stuff like interact and librarians sometimes @@ well after nxt week not much tension and plus PMR trials is coming i shud buck up and do some revision before i regret it man ><'' Oh Lord help me and then my love life is good soo far im happy =] i hope she is too xD and well i think dat is about it lol urmm ok wht to talk about today well alot of ppl have been asking me wht kind of girl i like lol wht a ques but i guess i'll answer it haha urmm the girl i like:
a) i like a girl who can at least play a piano and i wish she wud play for me on my birthday coz dat wud be the best prez
b) medium-long hair lol
c)cute
d)a girl who i can be myself around
e) a girl who wud love me for the rest of my life

Well i think dat is about it xD well ur ques is answered xD
oh yea just a reminder dat everytime i post a new post it wud be updates about my life and topics i wud love to share ^^ TKS

isit really happening??

Well lets say i don't know whether am i thinking too much or its really happening but ure not replying ure not reacting to wht i say anymore u don say ily to me anymore at night i know these are all small stuff but its like these small stuff really mean smt to me small words like ily it really does mean smt to me i used to smile everytime u say it to me but now....i go to sleep without a smile im not complaining its just dat honestly i am feeling doubts if ure reading this i expect you to come talk to me about it if u don i get the idea. Thats all i wanna say bye

hmmmm=/

i feel soo bad to cha hui la i donor and im having doubt whether imma good boyfriend to her anot i feel im not treating her well enough i felt i neglected her for some reasons she forgives me and stuff but still...from now on i should treat her well i should fire my spirit up and start to do whats best for her and me. Lord i pray to you pls help in our relationship i really pray we could be together forever....

What a day?

hmm today was kinda bad luck =/ again its like family dah la 3 probs popping out den arguement with a i do not know DJ @@ omg what the hell >< aiyooooo Lord pls come to my aid release all my guilt and my sins >< Lord   please help me with my temper pls pls oh Lord i pray for my enemies and those who offended me that they might take it as lesson Lord i did not know wht i just did that i just did but since its from You Father i pray it is for the best of both sides Lord. Amen

Another day passed

i donor why today again i almost loose my cool why insultments always comes to me??? why? why? WHY THE FUCK must they always comes to me and i alone have to live through it??! WHY??! i almost had enough of it already why do life always give me bitterness even its my holiday? why?

Bad Luck day

i kinda hate it today i donor why i kept doing things that is not of my knowing like im being controlled like during mass i kept doing stupid mistakes i dissapointed my priest and its like his last year with us and we still do stupid mistakes >< and i donor why today i very fast get impatient and angry its like lil stuff im angry ade i kinda dulan kj abit i donor why probably im just being a jealous bastard i donor gosh wth is wrong with me TODAE???!!! WHAT TELL ME WHAT???!!

oh Lord Jesus Christ help me Lord teach me to have patient teach me to control my anger oh Lord i pray to you i don't wanna scold ppl for no reason Lord HELP

Daily news

waliao today ah damn boring man ><'' teacher all sitting waiting happily for tml coz they 'think' they will get presents @@ ahh well i doubt so XD im evil. But still la still fun talking to celine all xD epic moments xD oh well goin to sunway lagoon in like 4 more days or so i honestly want nicky to go la he ah GRRRR... well nice nice day.. ytd i parkour abit kena big scratch external la but got internal bleeding >< but gonna heal de still lesson learned not to TRY to parkour on non-attraction place >< hmm well i guess i will stop here since BRENDA is rushing me LOL ok CIAOO

The Creator

Well today not much just normal crap stuff in school trying to study as hard as possible but in the end failed too seems like im not the study kind but still i will try my best to score in exams!

Bringing to the sad news today was......my grandma she..passed away well this what happened my uncle called my dad and told my dad that she was sick so my father drove there and when he called he said that she passed away now m skipping school and tml im suppose to visit her well at least i know that she will be in good hands of The Creator and Lord I pray that You will take care of her in heaven God Bless.

i think dats all for today
K, bye

reminiscence of the past

hmm well today not much to talk about soo its gonna be short and simple lolz ok well the bad news of the day is i lost RM50/60 of the library's money >< im soo dead wei i totally could rmb i left it on my study table but someone must have took it >< well put that aside in school was quite boring i must say but its funny at the same time lolz Pn.Teh made fun of samuel whn like shu wen walk out of class Pn.Teh ask samuel whether he wants to date shu wen xDD dat would be a funny thing lolz aside from dat during BM no teacher soo we gather and chat lolz well dat wud bring to todays topic we all(Celine,Jane,Shuu Jun., Nicholas...etc) were bringing back the past about old shows dat was acted by Stephen Chow lolz his comedy xD quite funny well i think dats all for today lor i think... lolz

ps: WISH ME LUCK IN FINDING THE LIBRARY's MONEY ><'''

The start of a new life

hmm i think of starting a new daily blog rather den my old blog which talks about feelings only soo here is my daily blog which im pretty much gonna tell a lil bit a my feelings of the day and what i do on that day. But im not gonna put this on public im afraid that i might say smt that might offend anyone soo if u can enter here LUCKY YOU! XD well to those who i selected im sorry if there is anything in the text that might offend you but well if u have a prob with it do tell! =]