The Lord is definately with me...

well she left off to aussie weeks back and now i have the mood to update my blog that no one reads :/ no cares its better this way anyways i left with no worries to talk about other people >:) hmm but i would likely do that la.Hmm recently...not to say im an ultimate patience guy but due to the recent events that has been happening to me when people offend me or anything i would just you know keep quiet smile and walk away and the only thing that whispered softly to my mind was ''Keep Calm and Walk Away'' and what reminded me when i heard it was this phrase ''love you enemies as you love your friends'' I have no clue at all whether that is legitly acceptable in my life but...you know i feel that it is something to start of on me trying to turn over a new leaf i mean whats the point me giving other people advice when i don practice it??? Seems wrong right? But i still have doubt that i can do it i still don't know whether i can.....just walk away when someone insults me can i? im not sure..well all i can do is try my best to and keep calm and smile :) i used to be like this in form 2 till something else pops up...enough about that but the point im saying is i want that feeling back i want to feel that imma person that people can depend on.....well i guess thats all for this blog post and soon will be added up :) God Bless,
sincerely, Slash....

OH HAPPY DAY

today there is a blessing that her flight was postponed till end of the month i know its not much of a good news to most of you out there but i mean its like better den nth ryte? i mean to me its already a blessing and i should appreciate it and i will :DDDDDD. hmmm well we talked about the long-distance relationship thing and both of us think that it would work...well its going to be suffering and painful but i mean if it really works the outcome of the relationship is strong i believe when 2 people can hold on to the relationship no matter the distance and time, that is pure love i know some of you all would think "waaa sooo drama wan ah?" but i mean just think for a moment lo that isn't it true?:) If i was pushed to a point where i cant hold on.....and..well i feel that i would not give up that easily because we have worked hard enough to get to this stage and you want me to quit? hahaha think again. As ive said in my previous post if i have enough money to get there just to visit her i would and i will. Many have asked me that 'what if she have another guy there?" i only said one thing to them ''i trust her'' and i do trust her i trust she knows what is she doing and the consequences that is the amount of trust i have on her :) well not much thing to say about today also soo i might as well end here before i get more emotional and start being more 'drama' in this post see ya!

It has been a while....

Well, it has been awhile since i post smt and since i need to let it out somewhere i figured..here. Haih many things has been happening the past few months i mean like wth is goin on with me ive been goin bad to worst...and i only realised this when i was talking to waikim ytd and it made me realise that ive gone from bad...to worst... although when i ask other people's opinion they usually wud say no or not reli but..somehow i don think thats how they feel well i have no one to blame but me i should not have started a relationship when i was form 2 it was a total mistake that i...well its passed now and there is nothing i can do . Now i have to say im going through such a hard time now i understand when people seem happy when they are sad ..they just don wanna others to worry much well celine if ure really reading this im sorry but at that time was not a good time to tell anything in later part of this post you would understand why. Haih.......few months ago She talked to me about her leaving and i felt sad that she had to leave to Aussie but somehow i feel happy for her that she might live a better life there compared to here...haha this might seem confusing to some of yall but this is just how it is. Last week was her last week at school and i felt useless when i cant make her last of her days here happy enough to leave a good memory, ive been stuck with school activities and such that i neglect her i mean HOW IN HEAVENS I WOULD DO THAT???!!! haih......... something is really going wrong with me i just don't know what, she sacrifice more than i did for her if its that then how to say that i am her boyfriend how am i to prove im worthy of her or being someones boyfriend at all? HOW HOW?? im just too disappointed in myself. I could not even balance my time to spend with her and my studies is really going down the drain i mean what am i suppose to do??? WHAT?! Well anyways on the last day of school she stayed back and i still could not think of a way to make her day happy.....all these while she has been making me happy instead of me making her happy she has done soo much even now she tries her hardest to just even to talk to me and im just sitting ducks waiting, sitting by the sidelines helplessly everyday i would pray she would be happy and we both would meet each other again but that dream is just too far to reach..i promised her that one day i would visit Aussie i don't know why id even do that i could not even make sure that i would visit there one day...im penniless now and the future is tooo uncertain... well i will stop for now i will..continue some other time..

feeeeeeeling

well i think i did a bad job at counseling ppl i dono why isit because i have changed? i dono its like more than making ppl feel better i made ppl feel more sad and cried i really did an awful job at making people feel better =/ i just look back in time and rmbered how i counsel mel in her bad times and i did an awful job looking back at the words ive said i feel like WTF??!! U GILA ARH??!!>.<'' haih whats wrong with me kenneth! be a better person help those in need of help and counseling no matter the gender and race. I mean i just like making people feel better and make them feel happy but why am i bad at doing such simple task? =/ haaih Lord HELP! >< well i can just try my best and maybe start from scratch? just listen and ans by logic? i mean last time i thought ppl don like what they are listening but they like to listen to the truth more soo maybe i should continue? see how la i will try to help them as best as i can IMMA TRY MY VERY BEST!!! >0<!!!

long updates?

hey to all who actually read my dead blog hmm where shud i start? uhh ok since the day i cpled, everything changed some are good some are bad my time organising went haywire my friendship shaking abit hmm but at the same time i was happy i am with someone who actually likes me for who i am and willing to stay that way for sooooo long at the same time urong and nicky they all giving me guilt trip and haih i feeeeeel im kinda useless i could not even skate to ss2 i mean its just ss2 not far and i dono why my leg just loves to stuck at the road and make me falll shhhheeessshhh =/= im never gonna get there with skates walking still the best =DDD well overall i would say its goooood cause i have my dear with me =DDDDD i really do love her very much but recently she brought the matter on she goin to aussie nxt year and i was liike emo-ish and we talked about it and then i broke down and started to tear i mean how could i not tear its like a person who i love the most is goin to aussie permanently and im like left here but well after short thought at that time i was like lets just treasure the time we have and make it a good one and i asked her to promise me to not regretting this relationship coz she was soo worried bout me that she thinks its her fault that she started this and i just like said that its both out decision soo dont put all responsibility on shoulder and i think it was good that we made this decision that we actually love each other but if God really meant we are not meant for each other we have no choice and to treasure the time He gave to us soo yea and i promised her not to be sad and emo that i wud be thinking the good times rather than the bad times =/ and yea i will always keep my promise

Now for the recent one that happened today =DDD
its novie's bday party and it was DA BOMBED xD i mean it was quite fun aside me not having the fun that they had before i came D= but it was good anyways =D THKS NOVIE!! we shud do this more often xD oh joseph got drunk and did started getting high got car he see no car den he banged a wall and a pole xDD he ahh damn epic loool wai kim also abit clazie jumping like a rabbit and novette KO in the park xD EPIC.......

i never knew...

i honestly never thought in my time of sorrow ive met another person in my life that actually likes me and really means it i mean like shes there when i needed someone to talk to shes knows how to comfort me when im sad she cares for me when i injure myself shes has the hairstyle i like i mean like to be short shes everything i like in a girl i really hope this relationship works and i pray she wont go aus T_T oh LORD help me and help me in my PMR too i don wish to fail and get bad marks for it i wanna ALL A's i pray u wud help me T_T

lol

hmm i just blogging to say SORRY celine xD my good fwen i was kinda in a no-soo-good shape =/ i was thinking ytd of breaking up soo i kinda disturbed soo i turn into a douche soo yea sry xD and id rather keep my balls to myself haha im kinda scared of trials wei all the senior say trial hard..=/ oh well its not pmr soo slack abit la lol camp for us is coming sooon november pray alot of ppl can go then more fun like last year XD oh well i shall go sleeep xD bb