feeeeeeeling

well i think i did a bad job at counseling ppl i dono why isit because i have changed? i dono its like more than making ppl feel better i made ppl feel more sad and cried i really did an awful job at making people feel better =/ i just look back in time and rmbered how i counsel mel in her bad times and i did an awful job looking back at the words ive said i feel like WTF??!! U GILA ARH??!!>.<'' haih whats wrong with me kenneth! be a better person help those in need of help and counseling no matter the gender and race. I mean i just like making people feel better and make them feel happy but why am i bad at doing such simple task? =/ haaih Lord HELP! >< well i can just try my best and maybe start from scratch? just listen and ans by logic? i mean last time i thought ppl don like what they are listening but they like to listen to the truth more soo maybe i should continue? see how la i will try to help them as best as i can IMMA TRY MY VERY BEST!!! >0<!!!

long updates?

hey to all who actually read my dead blog hmm where shud i start? uhh ok since the day i cpled, everything changed some are good some are bad my time organising went haywire my friendship shaking abit hmm but at the same time i was happy i am with someone who actually likes me for who i am and willing to stay that way for sooooo long at the same time urong and nicky they all giving me guilt trip and haih i feeeeeel im kinda useless i could not even skate to ss2 i mean its just ss2 not far and i dono why my leg just loves to stuck at the road and make me falll shhhheeessshhh =/= im never gonna get there with skates walking still the best =DDD well overall i would say its goooood cause i have my dear with me =DDDDD i really do love her very much but recently she brought the matter on she goin to aussie nxt year and i was liike emo-ish and we talked about it and then i broke down and started to tear i mean how could i not tear its like a person who i love the most is goin to aussie permanently and im like left here but well after short thought at that time i was like lets just treasure the time we have and make it a good one and i asked her to promise me to not regretting this relationship coz she was soo worried bout me that she thinks its her fault that she started this and i just like said that its both out decision soo dont put all responsibility on shoulder and i think it was good that we made this decision that we actually love each other but if God really meant we are not meant for each other we have no choice and to treasure the time He gave to us soo yea and i promised her not to be sad and emo that i wud be thinking the good times rather than the bad times =/ and yea i will always keep my promise

Now for the recent one that happened today =DDD
its novie's bday party and it was DA BOMBED xD i mean it was quite fun aside me not having the fun that they had before i came D= but it was good anyways =D THKS NOVIE!! we shud do this more often xD oh joseph got drunk and did started getting high got car he see no car den he banged a wall and a pole xDD he ahh damn epic loool wai kim also abit clazie jumping like a rabbit and novette KO in the park xD EPIC.......