The Lord is definately with me...

well she left off to aussie weeks back and now i have the mood to update my blog that no one reads :/ no cares its better this way anyways i left with no worries to talk about other people >:) hmm but i would likely do that la.Hmm recently...not to say im an ultimate patience guy but due to the recent events that has been happening to me when people offend me or anything i would just you know keep quiet smile and walk away and the only thing that whispered softly to my mind was ''Keep Calm and Walk Away'' and what reminded me when i heard it was this phrase ''love you enemies as you love your friends'' I have no clue at all whether that is legitly acceptable in my life but...you know i feel that it is something to start of on me trying to turn over a new leaf i mean whats the point me giving other people advice when i don practice it??? Seems wrong right? But i still have doubt that i can do it i still don't know whether i can.....just walk away when someone insults me can i? im not sure..well all i can do is try my best to and keep calm and smile :) i used to be like this in form 2 till something else pops up...enough about that but the point im saying is i want that feeling back i want to feel that imma person that people can depend on.....well i guess thats all for this blog post and soon will be added up :) God Bless,
sincerely, Slash....

OH HAPPY DAY

today there is a blessing that her flight was postponed till end of the month i know its not much of a good news to most of you out there but i mean its like better den nth ryte? i mean to me its already a blessing and i should appreciate it and i will :DDDDDD. hmmm well we talked about the long-distance relationship thing and both of us think that it would work...well its going to be suffering and painful but i mean if it really works the outcome of the relationship is strong i believe when 2 people can hold on to the relationship no matter the distance and time, that is pure love i know some of you all would think "waaa sooo drama wan ah?" but i mean just think for a moment lo that isn't it true?:) If i was pushed to a point where i cant hold on.....and..well i feel that i would not give up that easily because we have worked hard enough to get to this stage and you want me to quit? hahaha think again. As ive said in my previous post if i have enough money to get there just to visit her i would and i will. Many have asked me that 'what if she have another guy there?" i only said one thing to them ''i trust her'' and i do trust her i trust she knows what is she doing and the consequences that is the amount of trust i have on her :) well not much thing to say about today also soo i might as well end here before i get more emotional and start being more 'drama' in this post see ya!

It has been a while....

Well, it has been awhile since i post smt and since i need to let it out somewhere i figured..here. Haih many things has been happening the past few months i mean like wth is goin on with me ive been goin bad to worst...and i only realised this when i was talking to waikim ytd and it made me realise that ive gone from bad...to worst... although when i ask other people's opinion they usually wud say no or not reli but..somehow i don think thats how they feel well i have no one to blame but me i should not have started a relationship when i was form 2 it was a total mistake that i...well its passed now and there is nothing i can do . Now i have to say im going through such a hard time now i understand when people seem happy when they are sad ..they just don wanna others to worry much well celine if ure really reading this im sorry but at that time was not a good time to tell anything in later part of this post you would understand why. Haih.......few months ago She talked to me about her leaving and i felt sad that she had to leave to Aussie but somehow i feel happy for her that she might live a better life there compared to here...haha this might seem confusing to some of yall but this is just how it is. Last week was her last week at school and i felt useless when i cant make her last of her days here happy enough to leave a good memory, ive been stuck with school activities and such that i neglect her i mean HOW IN HEAVENS I WOULD DO THAT???!!! haih......... something is really going wrong with me i just don't know what, she sacrifice more than i did for her if its that then how to say that i am her boyfriend how am i to prove im worthy of her or being someones boyfriend at all? HOW HOW?? im just too disappointed in myself. I could not even balance my time to spend with her and my studies is really going down the drain i mean what am i suppose to do??? WHAT?! Well anyways on the last day of school she stayed back and i still could not think of a way to make her day happy.....all these while she has been making me happy instead of me making her happy she has done soo much even now she tries her hardest to just even to talk to me and im just sitting ducks waiting, sitting by the sidelines helplessly everyday i would pray she would be happy and we both would meet each other again but that dream is just too far to reach..i promised her that one day i would visit Aussie i don't know why id even do that i could not even make sure that i would visit there one day...im penniless now and the future is tooo uncertain... well i will stop for now i will..continue some other time..